Needed, but useless

[crowdog66]

A friend of mine needed me tonight, and I couldn't be with her to help.

That is, to me, one of the most horrible sins I can be guilty of.

But no -- I had to run away, take some more meds to drown out the voices screaming at me to hurt myself, and crawl back into bed. As hard as I tried to make myself stay and keep talking about the situation, I just couldnt...

I suck.

Comments

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Hey, don't beat up on yourself for it. There's been times when I've wished I could help someone, but I barely had the emotional strength to do it. Don't sweat it.

::Sends Julien with chocolate::

[elaryn.livejournal.com]

With every apology for contradicting you, but I do not agreee with you when you say that you suck. Sometimes, it is all one can do to carry one's OWN burdens. It sounds to me as though you are having a hard enough time dealing with what's been handed to you, though it was brave of you to even try. To my mind, at least, a "sin" is a deliberate act of malice or evil.

::sends you big hugs, lots of love and good energy::

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

I agree... *hugs* It doesn't feel good.. but you had to take care of you too..

[madra-liath.livejournal.com]

I had to [...] take some more meds to drown out the voices screaming at me to hurt myself, and crawl back into bed.

If you had to, then you had to. You don't suck because you had other problems to deal with at the time. Don't start berating yourself over this. It happens to all of us from time to time.

[metisbutterfly.livejournal.com]

i know it's hard, but you have to help yourself before you can help others. Don't overload the life boat. (((hugs)).