Needed, but useless

[crowdog66]

A friend of mine needed me tonight, and I couldn't be with her to help.

That is, to me, one of the most horrible sins I can be guilty of.

But no -- I had to run away, take some more meds to drown out the voices screaming at me to hurt myself, and crawl back into bed. As hard as I tried to make myself stay and keep talking about the situation, I just couldnt...

I suck.

Comments

[elaryn.livejournal.com]

With every apology for contradicting you, but I do not agreee with you when you say that you suck. Sometimes, it is all one can do to carry one's OWN burdens. It sounds to me as though you are having a hard enough time dealing with what's been handed to you, though it was brave of you to even try. To my mind, at least, a "sin" is a deliberate act of malice or evil.

::sends you big hugs, lots of love and good energy::