A complete balls-up

[crowdog66]

Man, I just can't get it right. I feel like I just completely balls-upped an impromptu RP session I held between two players who'd never done interactive fic-writing with me before (simultaneously). One of the players vanished suddenly, and the other got gone as quickly as they could. Just me? Ah, I don't know. I wouldn't blame them if they ran for the hills, the way I'm performing as a co-ordinator/GM.

I feel even worse because I rescheduled an AI RP session for tonight because I thought I'd be painting until all hours. As it was, I was painting until 8 pm or thereabouts, which still would have put paid to an AI session because of the scheduling needs of the player in Paris... but it's still one of those days when nothing seems in proper alignment with anything else.

To top it all off, another friend was on AIM trying to IM me, and because of all the windows I had open I didn't see her posts until after she'd signed off. Eastpath, if you read this, I'm sorry I missed you. Again.

Honestly, I find myself asking what the point is in doing anything at all. What the hell's wrong with me? I thought I was over days like this. It doesn't help that my uterus is dropping half a cup of clots at a time, which makes me feel out of sorts and vaguely worried for my health.

Maybe I should just crawl into a hole, pull my fics/work/ideas in after me, and stop bothering the world. Nothing works. And you know what? I really miss Micawber right now.

*hugs a picture of my big boy and cries*

Comments

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I dropped out last night, but I was terribly, terribly tired, on the verge of falling asleep at my keyboard: I'd had a long day yesterday, running errands I couldn't get done earlier in the week on account of work, et al. Plus I'm getting to the end of my cycle as well, which often means I get really tired rather quickly. I should have explained the situation better; it wasn't you at all: it was me.

[crowdog66.livejournal.com]

No, was me! ;-)

No problem -- I understand, I was just feeling really uber-sensitive and inadequate in general. You explained yourself well. I was just beating myself up. Thank you for taking time to post here and help make me feel better. :-)