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[crowdog66]

I just had MR in AIM, and she stopped talking to Ruby to talk to me. She said she was sorry that she had, so I apologized for interrupting her and signed off in embarassment.

Got up enough courage to go back a couple of minutes later, and she was already gone. Probably just as well. All I want tonight is some kind of distraction, some kind of comfort. It would have been a waste of her time.

Pacing around and around inside this cage... George is sleeping, so I'm alone. God, I wish I never had to face anyone again.

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[eastpath.livejournal.com]

I really wish I could understand the complexities of what you are going through.

When I look at it, I see an totally different situation.

I see you blaming yourself for things that are not your fault, but I do not understand why.

I really do think you need something to treat panic as well, but that is just an observation of me.

You have been there so much for me, I want to be there for you. Whatever I can do to help just let me know.

[metisbutterfly.livejournal.com]

I just want to let you know that i am here for you..I lit a candle on my altar for you the other night, the Virgin de Regla, aka Yemaya in Catholic saint form..She was known to deliver people from drowning, She is looking out for you :)
All i can say is please, please , please when you feel like this, call Klinic or the Sara Riel Crisis Mobilization unit, a crisis line where you can get help. Thou art Goddess, and the Goddess is there in the deepest, darkest moments of our lives. We all care about you and are pulling for you.

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Laurie, please don't blame yourself for my awkward remark last night. I was afraid I'd upset you somehow and I ended up blurting out/typing down the first thing that popped into my head, when I probably should just have kept my hands off the keyboard. I was afraid I'd only added to your pain, and I was worried for you all day. I think of you a lot, and you are always in my heart, because I know the dark places you're going through. Just remember I'm here for you, clumsy or graceful. Like Frank in the "A.I." RP, I always mean well even when I trip up.

Hello, it's Ruby...

[(Anonymous)]

Please don't feel bad about the other night-- I told MR to go talk to you instead, helping out a friend in a bad spot is a far far far FAR more important thing than idle chit-chat.
Please don't feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders-- it isn't. The weight's on everybody at some point, and we all share in it. When you're miserable, we can't help but feel that weight and we want to lift it off of you any way we can. Please, if there's anything we can do, don't hesitate to ask for it. We're here, we're rooting for you and we're loving you with every ounce of energy because that's just what we can do and it's what feels right.
If I might make a suggestion, I would strongly encourage you to see a mental health professional...sometimes, medications wear off and leave us feeling worse than when we began. You might just need an outside 3rd party to talk to, somebody that cannot judge you on your past because they do not know it, cannot judge you on who you are because it is not their right-- all they can do is sit and let you talk as long as needed, because that's what they're there for.
::hugs::

I really hope you take at least some of this to heart, and please don't hesitate to ask for anything of us if it'll make you feel better.

All our love,
Ruby and family