4 tablets

[crowdog66]

Down to 4 Nortryptiline tablets, and the world is closing in on me. Cried a lot today. Only a full Alprazolam tablet helped.

It's a nightmare that I don't want to fight anymore.

From http://depressionandsuicide.com/ :

"We, the depressed, in our darkest hours have
No energy to move
No reason to live
No will to survive
No hope in a cure
No reason to try.
We roam the earth as the living dead
Wanting only to extinguish
That persistent heart that beats,
That ceaseless breath that enters,
That pain that never relents."

Amen.

There's nobody out there, no hope, and things are just going to keep getting worse.

Comments

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

Wow. Powerful stuff. Would you mind if I copied that poem and slipped it to a few people I know who just don't seem to understand what it's like to be depressed?

Wish I could be right there, right now to help you. But I'm here on line, so drop me an email or an IM and I'll be there for you.

[crowdog66.livejournal.com]

It's not my poem originally; I credited the site in my original post, so I certainly don't mind if you copy it. Something tells me that the person who owns that site wouldn't mind, but you might want to see if you can find a credit for who wrote the poem somewhere on that site.

Last night's chat session helped a lot. Thanks!