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I hate the constant cycles of pain. Today it's so bad I can barely work. All I want to do is curl up on the couch with a warm blanket and a hot cup of tea and lose my aching mind in a book.

For all the wrongs I have ever done, I ask forgiveness. Please, let me do better in whatever future remains to me.

ETA: I actually got a page of Star Wars flats done. Pizza has been ordered. Soon, I will be on the couch with a Coke and a slice, which right now is about as close to heaven as I can imagine...

*sigh*

Bed

I was supposed to stay up and get more work done, but I just can't stand feeling like this anymore. I'm going to bed. I'll try doing it without medication first, but if this keeps up much longer -- gulp, gulp! Down goes the tranquillizer and the antipsychotic.

Fuck. I am such a mess, and so damned weak.

In short, the pizza and Coke didn't help anywhere near as much as I'd hoped it would. :-(((