A complete balls-up

[crowdog66]

Man, I just can't get it right. I feel like I just completely balls-upped an impromptu RP session I held between two players who'd never done interactive fic-writing with me before (simultaneously). One of the players vanished suddenly, and the other got gone as quickly as they could. Just me? Ah, I don't know. I wouldn't blame them if they ran for the hills, the way I'm performing as a co-ordinator/GM.

I feel even worse because I rescheduled an AI RP session for tonight because I thought I'd be painting until all hours. As it was, I was painting until 8 pm or thereabouts, which still would have put paid to an AI session because of the scheduling needs of the player in Paris... but it's still one of those days when nothing seems in proper alignment with anything else.

To top it all off, another friend was on AIM trying to IM me, and because of all the windows I had open I didn't see her posts until after she'd signed off. Eastpath, if you read this, I'm sorry I missed you. Again.

Honestly, I find myself asking what the point is in doing anything at all. What the hell's wrong with me? I thought I was over days like this. It doesn't help that my uterus is dropping half a cup of clots at a time, which makes me feel out of sorts and vaguely worried for my health.

Maybe I should just crawl into a hole, pull my fics/work/ideas in after me, and stop bothering the world. Nothing works. And you know what? I really miss Micawber right now.

*hugs a picture of my big boy and cries*

Comments

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

There is a lot of wonkiness in the world right now.. I feel shitty too and don't doubt it, read my post and yea...

Don't worry about me :) I know you get busy and miss my messages but it's all good. I am still hoping to be able to see you Sunday at the least for the sacred well thing if your coming... *hugs*

I'm never mad about missing you on AIM, there is no stress there so don't even worry about it..

As for the feeling shitty part, I get that. I get it very well and I think it's just something in the general energy of our section of the world because I feel the same way.

*HUGE HUGS*

If anything hopefully I'll get to see you Sunday. Jill is offering rides, you can come here and get a ride with me as Jill is picking me up...? How does that sound?

*more hugs*

Don't crawl into a hole, I'd miss you too much!

[crowdog66.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Eastpath... *hugs!*

I think coming to your place for meeting pick-up sounds like a great idea. What time should I be there? :-)

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

Just confirming that, I sent her an email. I'll let you know asap *HUGS* Should be in the between 5-6 range I'm sure. *hugs* :D

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

Around 6... So I'd say get here for like 5:50... that sound cool?

[crowdog66.livejournal.com]

Slight change of plan -- looks like I'll have to flat Star Wars all day Sunday, so I'm asking Aisling to pick me up downtown.

Wah... (must repeat to self: all work is good work, all work is good work, all work is good work...)

See you then!

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

No problem :) *hugs* See ya then! Email her too to make sure she gets the update.. ^^ If you're not in the car when she gets here I'll get her to come and get you :D