Work, Christmas, and sadness

[crowdog66]

Spent most of today working on HB, trying to hit the Wednesday deadline. It's been hard because this afternoon, for some reason, I really started thinking about Christmas, and about how it will be my first Christmas without my mother. The thought is immensely depressing and has taken away all desire to do anything whatsoever.

I've been blowing my carb loads all day -- impulse eating is one way that I comfort myself during periods of intense stress. Bleah.

On a positive note, I broke 35k last night for NaNoWriMo. I'm still really struggling with it, but at least I'm back on the horse and moving forward.

eastpath was able to give me enough shampoo for one wash after I realized this morning that George had used up the very last of the shampoo we had. This will get me through tomorrow, when I have to go all the way out to Unicity to get my annual flu shot. I'll do some necessary grocery shopping on the way home and pick up a couple of prescriptions.

Okay. Working.

Comments

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

odd side fact, strange but true... carbs i think can be linked to down moods... much like sugar and low energy... so the carbs we eat to feel better and comfort ourselves tends to cycle into feeling bad and crappy and having more carbs for comfort.... stupid/strange/retarded i know... :/ just a thought to contribute to maybe treating yourself to something with less carbs that may help pull you out *HUGS*

realizing of course this is conjecture and i can't remember where i got that info from and i could be way the heck of base... talk soon *more hugs*