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Tomorrow I have to go with George to visit with his family in Selkirk for Canada Day. I don't know how I'm going to endure it. The last thing I feel like doing is being around 30-odd people right now, especially when there are babies and children in the mix.

Managed to exercise for 20 minutes, even with a tranquillizer under my belt from earlier this evening.

If I had a suicide button, I'd press it right now. Why can't I just get George out of the house, go into the bathroom with a blade, run a tub full of hot water, and get it over with? Why didn't I do it this afternoon?
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 03:08 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] madra-liath.livejournal.com
Please, please talk to someone about how you're feeling. Don't sit there by yourself, feeling like that.

Please.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 03:58 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] crowdog66.livejournal.com
I've talked with George about it; if it gets bad enough, he'll take me to the nearby emergency ward. Right now all I can really do is take more medication and knock myself unconscious, which is what I plan to do next.

Thank you for thinking of me, and for posting.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 04:20 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] madra-liath.livejournal.com
You're welcome, crowdog. I just wish I could do more than leave a message on your journal.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 03:20 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] beckyh2112.livejournal.com
*hugs Laurie tightly* I love you and adore you and I wish I could make things better for you, but I don't know how.

I guess all I can do is pray for you.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 03:59 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] crowdog66.livejournal.com
Prayers gratefully accepted. I need all the help I can get right about now.

Thank you for thinking of me.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 04:09 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] beckyh2112.livejournal.com
Babe, I can't not think of you. It's good to know what you've managed to do when you're in the dark places, and seeing that gives me hope.

*hugs*
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 03:48 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] eastpath.livejournal.com
Because you know that even if it sucks so bad right now, it's somewhat worth sticking around for *HUGS* thinking of you!!!!
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 03:59 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] crowdog66.livejournal.com
Thanks. :-) I'm trying to hang in there, and to believe that there's something worth being here for. Friends like you help, a lot.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 04:03 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] eastpath.livejournal.com
of course my fave icon.... i'm glad i can help even in some small way... online if you want to talk :)
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 04:00 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] dark-puck.livejournal.com
*snuggles* We'd miss you if you went. Please don't go.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 04:10 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] crowdog66.livejournal.com
I want to die -- badly -- but I don't think I can. Something is holding me back. I'll be damned if I know what it is, but I can't seem to give up and let go.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 04:13 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] dark-puck.livejournal.com
*pets* Whatever it is, I'm grateful for it. The world would lose a light if you died.
Date/Time: 2006-07-01 06:47 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] elaryn.livejournal.com
I quite agree, and I, too, wish I could do more for you than just write a comment in your journal and send you good thoughts. *hugs* Please stay. We'd miss you so.
Date/Time: 2006-07-02 03:34 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] metisbutterfly.livejournal.com
sister, please hang in there,. know that we love and care for you.
Date/Time: 2006-07-05 09:47 (UTC)Posted by: [identity profile] cockatiel-art.livejournal.com
**HUGGGGGGGGZ** Glad you didn't do it. **Hugz again**