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I have just done something that breaks my heart.
May all the Gods I honor forgive me for it. I failed, and had to face up to it. I just wish things could have turned out differently.
I hope I did the right thing, and that it was the best thing to do for everyone concerned. Doing it certainly hurt enough...
I'm sorry, Neo. Oh, Gods, I'm so sorry.
The things I regret: Not getting to know you and Trinity and Smith even better. Not being there to help advise on the setup of the monastary. Not BEING there, period. If this had happened even a few months further into my recovery, it might have made a difference. I might have been able to handle things better. But as it is -- I'm just too weak, and there are things I cannot bear.
I hope you'll find it in yourself to forgive me. I wish things could have been different. But I can't lie to you, and I can't put either of us through the horrible tangle of emotions and cross-purposes that would result if I stayed on.
May all the Gods I honor forgive me for it. I failed, and had to face up to it. I just wish things could have turned out differently.
I hope I did the right thing, and that it was the best thing to do for everyone concerned. Doing it certainly hurt enough...
I'm sorry, Neo. Oh, Gods, I'm so sorry.
The things I regret: Not getting to know you and Trinity and Smith even better. Not being there to help advise on the setup of the monastary. Not BEING there, period. If this had happened even a few months further into my recovery, it might have made a difference. I might have been able to handle things better. But as it is -- I'm just too weak, and there are things I cannot bear.
I hope you'll find it in yourself to forgive me. I wish things could have been different. But I can't lie to you, and I can't put either of us through the horrible tangle of emotions and cross-purposes that would result if I stayed on.
