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Today the black dogs of depression finally caught up with me fully. I slept through a meeting I was planning to attend this afternoon and haven't been able to pull myself out of the jaws of the pack, even for a few minutes at at time.
This is what I get for missing exercise so many days in a row. But the motivation has been in the negatives... and now I'm also fighting the wet-sandbag drag of full-blown depression. I was seriously suicidal today for the first time in a long while. With this kind of weight on top of me and the awareness of my own failings, I just don't want to go on.
I got together with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sammelsadvocate for dinner at 6 pm; he sent me the following link:
http://www.randomkittengenerator.com/
which did make me smile a bit.
Oh, and I managed to finish a cover for HB. According to my editor there'll be another one on the FTP site tomorrow, which has to be finished... tomorrow. *headdesk repeatedly*
This is what I get for missing exercise so many days in a row. But the motivation has been in the negatives... and now I'm also fighting the wet-sandbag drag of full-blown depression. I was seriously suicidal today for the first time in a long while. With this kind of weight on top of me and the awareness of my own failings, I just don't want to go on.
I got together with
sammelsadvocate for dinner at 6 pm; he sent me the following link:http://www.randomkittengenerator.com/
which did make me smile a bit.
Oh, and I managed to finish a cover for HB. According to my editor there'll be another one on the FTP site tomorrow, which has to be finished... tomorrow. *headdesk repeatedly*
