Fear

[crowdog66]

I hate being this crippled with fear. I hate wanting to die, and knowing that unless the distress level suddenly ramps sharply, I'll almost certainly resist the impulse to commit suicide. I really wish I could -- to escape this grinding intolerable feeling of despair and uncertainty.

I'm tempted to just stop my medications and let nature, and the depression, take its course.

But I'll go on living. God damn it.

Comments

[lacontessamala.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I wish I knew what to say. Be well.

[ravyne-hawke.livejournal.com]

*huge hugs* so sorry hun, but I know how you feel. Damn depression! Hang in there sweetie. I love you!

[elaryn.livejournal.com]

I've said it before, and I'll continue to say it, but the world's a better place with you in it. There are far too few intelligent, articulate, compassionate, genuinely nice people in the world, and I think you are one of them.

Like Squirelly, I wish I could think of something to say - other than what has been repeated so often - something wise, witty and warm, that will help lift your depression.

*more hugs - as many as you need, and then some*

[beckyh2112.livejournal.com]

As my mind lingers in the realm of Greek tragedies, I do not know what words of comfort I can offer you. However, oh mine lady fair, I beg of you to stand against the wild winds. Be as the willow, which whips forth and back in the storm, but bends rather than breaks. You are too fine a woman to lose, so I do selfishly beg you to remain with us.

*hugs*

[cockatiel-art.livejournal.com]

**Tosses a towel over crow joe and takes over the coffee/tea/chocolate making and hands Crow-Joe a good book.**

I hate feel like the world is ready to swallow me whole. That's when I bring the explosives and blow the bugger up
:-D . More chocolate? **Offers crow-joe the chokkie box**

Don't worry about letting us know how you feel, no matter how bad you feel. We like the updates and when you're down, we can hold you up **hugs**. You're a damn fine friend and we won't let you forget that!

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

*hugs and support*