Ground down inside

[crowdog66]

*sigh* Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing things right at all. Today I feel fairly competant on the outside, but my innermost core feels ground down and stressed. I think last night's ritual went well, but... eh. My self-confidence is going up and down, and I don't know whether or not to trust myself.

Went to see the World Famous Lipizzaner Stallions today with George and my mother.

WOW.

What alien creatures horses are -- all muscle and strange angles on four tiny feet. Some of the movements they were able to perform, both alone and in groups, were bloody amazing.

Afterwards, a dinner out (and for me a rare treat of ice cream and brownies for dessert). *shakes head* Everything is good on the outside. Why does the ghost of miserable depression still haunt me?

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[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

::Hugs:: I'm in AIM right now if you need to talk....

I've just been watching the movie "Seabiscuit" with my folks, so that and your seeing the Lipizzaner Stallions reminded me of when my folks and I saw a similar show when I was about 12 or so. I have to admit, I'm not as crazy about horses as I used to be, but I still admire them: such remarkable creatures. So oddly graceful...

[pink-gecco.livejournal.com]

The ritual was absolutely fabulous! I felt the magick of it stay with me all day yesterday. Thank-you so much for a wonderful evening. I didn't even feel sore and horrible the next morning like I usually do after staying up until 3 a.m.

Love and blessings to you - T.