Overdue phone calls

[crowdog66]

I'm feeling chilly, so I'm bundled up in my warm up-to-the-ankle house slippers and the Winnipeg Humane Society sweater that I inherited from my mom, with a cup of hot coffee close at hand.

Today I'm finally biting the bullet and phoning her credit card companies to report her death. I know it's pathetic, but I simply haven't been able to bring myself to do it before. For some reason the prospect is a lot less painful now than it was even a month or so ago.

I talked things over with my psychiatrist yesterday and came to the decision that I really don't need to go back to the anxiety-provoking environment of Ipsos-Reid. As he pointed out, I already have a career that I get a lot of satisfaction out of and that brings joy to people; it's not like I need the I-R job in order to pay the bills. Still, it feels an awful lot like admitting that I fail at the game of Real Life. And there's the letter of resignation to write, which will not be a lot of fun.

On my way to the hospital yesterday afternoon I stopped at the Millennium Library to drop off some books and ended up buying a couple of used books from a table in front of their gift shop. One is a book on endometriosis that I picked up for Terri, and the other is a book about ancient inventions that so far is pretty cool. From the library's New and Noted stacks I also picked up a book about James Tiptree Jr., a book about palliative care, and a book about the controversy over homosexuality. Those should keep me in reading material for a while.

MM calls. Again.

Comments

[curiosity.livejournal.com]

Dude, you totally win at Real Life. The Ultimate Goal, as far as work is concerned, is to have a job/career that you love AND pays the bills. That nine to five desk job sort of crap is merely a stepping stone.

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

Agree to the above! You are living Real Life as we speak... and so what that it is different from "main stream" real life... no one can say that what works for Joe Schmoe should work for you! You've got the coolest job ever, set your own days and times and schedule and I envy you :)

[metisbutterfly.livejournal.com]

I think you came to a good decision about IR..those kind of environments are very stressful even for those that don't have mental health issues....and it does NOT mean you failed. ((hugs)). You have a great career and life. Don't sell yourself short!
Sounds like some good books! I might be interested in borrowing the one on pallative care if you wouldn't mind when you are done with it.
The credit card companies will understand about your mom..these things are hard to do.