"Here comes the rain again"

[crowdog66]

Hellacious depression has just settled back, like a migraine that never quite went away. I was doing not-so-bad yesterday and this morning (when I had to go to the bank and settle up the frozen account), but just in the last few hours -- damn.

I barely managed 15 minutes of exercise, and even that was after forcing myself to do it and conducted through a weight of misery that hung on my limbs like sandbags. The ache of emotional exhaustion and the increasingly solid pulse of "yes, it's time to die" whispering in my mind have knackered me.

Came up with some henna tattoo designs the last couple of days, none of them much good. I'm trying to be gentle with myself, but really... I'm an artist, God damn it. Stuff like this should just flow from my fingers.

Going to bed early, because I can't think of anything else to do. Tomorrow I see my psychiatrist. I don't have a lot of encouraging news to give him.

Comments

[beckyh2112.livejournal.com]

*hugs tightly*

[eastpath.livejournal.com]

*gets in on the hugging action for a big supportive group hug* Is it that time of the month coming?

[dark-puck.livejournal.com]

*snuggles*

[metisbutterfly.livejournal.com]

hon, sending positive energy your way, we're here for you.

[matrixrefugee.livejournal.com]

::Adds to the huggage::

::Uses her shirtless!Lambert icon to cheer you up...::