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I'm having a really hard time with having Reg in my home today. The stress feels like a vice clamped around my heart.
Last night I had a dream where I was in high school (but an adult: such is the logic of dreams), and Reg had recently come to the high school also. In the dream, people were starting to shun me because Reg was whispering lies about me in their ears, and I could tell that he took pleasure from doing so.
Now, a dream is just a dream. But sometimes dreams have strings that run all the way into our deepest emotional reactions. Hence my problems today -- anxiety, resentment, and the return of the rage that I'd managed to work my way out of over the last several days.
Gotta go try and eat some breakfast. The stress has locked down my stomach as well, so we'll see how that goes. No word yet on when House of Hesed can take Reg in; it was supposed to be tomorrow, but they've asked if they can have a few days grace on that. I just hope it's soon. I want my safe space back, dammit.
Last night I had a dream where I was in high school (but an adult: such is the logic of dreams), and Reg had recently come to the high school also. In the dream, people were starting to shun me because Reg was whispering lies about me in their ears, and I could tell that he took pleasure from doing so.
Now, a dream is just a dream. But sometimes dreams have strings that run all the way into our deepest emotional reactions. Hence my problems today -- anxiety, resentment, and the return of the rage that I'd managed to work my way out of over the last several days.
Gotta go try and eat some breakfast. The stress has locked down my stomach as well, so we'll see how that goes. No word yet on when House of Hesed can take Reg in; it was supposed to be tomorrow, but they've asked if they can have a few days grace on that. I just hope it's soon. I want my safe space back, dammit.
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