Bad night and not so great day

Last night after I went to bed I lay tossing and turning for (literally) hours, unable to sleep. My mind kept fixating on images of death -- my mother's, potentially my own if the sigmoidoscopy turns up cancer, and George's. I felt like I was trapped in a cold maze with a belly full of razors and no way out.

Finally I took a Valium, which, after another hour or so, calmed me down enough that I was able to drift off around 4 am. Needless to say this made getting out of bed this morning a real bitch-kitty, and I still feel like I'm weighed down under about a hundred pounds of wet sand.

When I told George how utterly craptastic I'm feeling, he suggested checking the calendar. And lo and behold, it HAS been 24 days since my last period: time for another one, on the schedule my body's been keeping for the last couple of years. So it's probably just a really hellacious bout of PMS.

Having an explanation for the emotional sewage vomiting out of the depths of my spirit helps a little. Later today I'll try to post about the full moon ritual on Friday night, with pictures (Photobucket doesn't seem to want to play well with my Mac at the moment and refuses to upload any images).

In the meantime, I'll direct you to http://icanhascheezburger.com for a cute fix. And here's a tip for free, based on the reading I did last night while waiting for the Valium to kick in: Rex Stout, the mystery writer, is damned good. I'd never read anything of his before, and was most pleasantly surprised.

Thanks, as always, for listening.

GrrrrrrAHHHHH!

Between two pieces of idiocy on Yahoo!Answers, I'm in an even worse mood.

First, there's this gem:

A message for Kjelstad?

I have reported you once for your blasphemous avatar. I do not wish to report you again. Instead I ask you to please change your avatar to something that does not glorify Satan.

If you do not, I will keep reporting you until you have your account deleted.

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3 hours ago
That avatar is VERY offensive. It supports the evil Satan and denies God. There is NOTHING more offensive than denying God.

... let me count the ways that this bitch has just violated the Y!A terms of service, not to mention common sense.

1) not respecting the question and answer format
2) directing a non-question at another user
3) threatening them
4) using the report system for reporting something other than a genuine violation of TOS
5) chatting
6) being a religious asshat (okay, that's not in the TOS, but dammit, it really should be)

I almost never report anyone, but this one was just begging for it.

And then there was this shining example of Christian "love":

Atheist! Do you know what an imprecatory prayer is?

Here's a clue:

“Oh, LORD, let their eyes be darkened, that they see not; and make their loins to continually shake. Pour out thine indignation upon them, and let thy wrathful anger take hold of them. Set thou a wicked man over him: and let Satan stand at his right hand. When he shall be judged, let him be condemned: and let his prayer become sin. Let his days be few; and let another take his office. Let his children be fatherless, and his wife a widow. Let his children be continually vagabonds, and beg: let them seek their bread also out of their desolate places. Let the extortioner catch all that he hath; and let the strangers spoil his labor. Let there be none to extend mercy unto him: neither let there be any to favor his fatherless children. Let his posterity be cut off; and in the generation following let their name be blotted out. O my God, make them like a wheel; as the stubble before the wind. As the fire burneth a wood, and as the flame setteth the mountains on fire; So persecute them with thy tempest, and make them afraid with thy storm. Fill their faces with shame; that they may seek thy name, O Lord. Let them be confounded and troubled forever; yea, let them be put to shame, and perish: That men may know that thou whose name alone is Jehovah, art the most High over all the earth.”

Whew. Now I feel better.

This asshole is actually proud of cursing people. PROUD of it.

Please, let a bus come along and hit me now. I've lost most of my faith in humanity, and in my own nature. I feel so black and hateful right now...