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I've really got to refresh myself on my Dialectial Behavioral Therapy (DBT) skills... I'm experiencing severe emotional swings and having a lot of trouble dealing with them right now. Add the fact that I'm still sick, and got worse yesterday after feeling better for a couple of days, and I'm just all-around depressed and irritable. I spent most of today sleeping, and just got up now to have some food and Neo Citran.
I called in to Ipsos-Reid today to cancel my shift because I had a headache, sore chest, and hacking cough all over again. This was disappointing to me, because my first day back after a month away was just Friday last. And it went very well: I was given a difficult survey and was able to handle it all shift long, and although I was monitored on my very first complete interview after a month away, I got very good scores. Not only that, but my co-workers response to my sudden reappearance was surprised, pleased, and quite friendly! This is the first time I've ever had that reaction at a job (thanks in huge part to the interpersonal skills I learned in my year-and-a-half DBT course), and it was fantastic.
I came back on Friday to discover that the company Christmas party was on Saturday night, and with surprising (to me) ease made the decision to go, partly influenced by the positive feedback from my co-workers. On Saturday night, George and I dressed up a bit and headed out to the event, which was held in one of the large meeting rooms at the University of Winnipeg, my alma mater. And again, I was suprised at how easy it all was. A co-worker had saved us space at her table, and we had a pretty darn good time. Going home that night, I was in high spirits.
The next afternoon, Sunday, I headed out to a rehearsal for a public Yule ritual (we're having a little mystery play, in which I'll be the Crone). Halfway through I it suddenly came over weak, dizzy, and nauseous; thought I was going to faint, but didn't, and went home after the meeting feeling under the weather. I did some work, had a chat with MR, got 8 hours of good sleep, and woke up feeling worse.
And that's where it stands. I also discovered that tomorrow (Tuesday) is my last chance to test for Level 3 in this evaluation period... I put it off after the evaluation out of nervousness, and when I finally scheduled it for the beginning of November I got knocked out by this infection (who knew?). AAAAAAAGH! It's partly my own damn fault, but the Human Resources folks at I-R were willing to book me tomorrow @ 4 pm, even though I'm not scheduled for a shift that day.
So, here we go. I've passed the written test (just before I took sick), but if I fail this oral test, I'm not up for another shot until February. And even then I might not be eligible, since my time off sick brings my number of shift cancellations up to the absolute maximum they'll accept before reliability becomes a serious issue. Kiss the wage increase from $9.80 to $10.50/hr goodbye...
Er, hope some of that made sense. Time to do a bit more work and then hit the sheets again. I'll do some studying for the oral test tomorrow afternoon. Just gotta keep telling myself: "It's not rocket science! It's a relatively simple job. There's no need to be terrified of it. Even sick, you'll do just fine."
*sigh*
I called in to Ipsos-Reid today to cancel my shift because I had a headache, sore chest, and hacking cough all over again. This was disappointing to me, because my first day back after a month away was just Friday last. And it went very well: I was given a difficult survey and was able to handle it all shift long, and although I was monitored on my very first complete interview after a month away, I got very good scores. Not only that, but my co-workers response to my sudden reappearance was surprised, pleased, and quite friendly! This is the first time I've ever had that reaction at a job (thanks in huge part to the interpersonal skills I learned in my year-and-a-half DBT course), and it was fantastic.
I came back on Friday to discover that the company Christmas party was on Saturday night, and with surprising (to me) ease made the decision to go, partly influenced by the positive feedback from my co-workers. On Saturday night, George and I dressed up a bit and headed out to the event, which was held in one of the large meeting rooms at the University of Winnipeg, my alma mater. And again, I was suprised at how easy it all was. A co-worker had saved us space at her table, and we had a pretty darn good time. Going home that night, I was in high spirits.
The next afternoon, Sunday, I headed out to a rehearsal for a public Yule ritual (we're having a little mystery play, in which I'll be the Crone). Halfway through I it suddenly came over weak, dizzy, and nauseous; thought I was going to faint, but didn't, and went home after the meeting feeling under the weather. I did some work, had a chat with MR, got 8 hours of good sleep, and woke up feeling worse.
And that's where it stands. I also discovered that tomorrow (Tuesday) is my last chance to test for Level 3 in this evaluation period... I put it off after the evaluation out of nervousness, and when I finally scheduled it for the beginning of November I got knocked out by this infection (who knew?). AAAAAAAGH! It's partly my own damn fault, but the Human Resources folks at I-R were willing to book me tomorrow @ 4 pm, even though I'm not scheduled for a shift that day.
So, here we go. I've passed the written test (just before I took sick), but if I fail this oral test, I'm not up for another shot until February. And even then I might not be eligible, since my time off sick brings my number of shift cancellations up to the absolute maximum they'll accept before reliability becomes a serious issue. Kiss the wage increase from $9.80 to $10.50/hr goodbye...
Er, hope some of that made sense. Time to do a bit more work and then hit the sheets again. I'll do some studying for the oral test tomorrow afternoon. Just gotta keep telling myself: "It's not rocket science! It's a relatively simple job. There's no need to be terrified of it. Even sick, you'll do just fine."
*sigh*
