Try not to be so hard on yourself. You've had a temporary setback because you've been sick. The keywork here is "temporary". You've come so far and have been feeling so much better recently.

Remember, 1 step back, 2 steps forward. You have the strength to get over this, I know you do. Don't beat yourself up about the a&w, either.

Sorry I didn't get to Beltane. I've been sick, too.